Now I am a lake...

"I'm a turtle, wherever I go I carry "home" on my back."
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Gloria Anzaldua

Posted by Maryam at 08:23 PM | Permalink

I think this is depression. It started 3 weeks ago and still continues. I could be very happy while being with others but then when I'm alone I feel the very sense of it. I stopped going to gym since then. I stopped being motivated with my studies. I started eating cakes and coffees and chips and chocolates instead and I can weep easily.

Still one week left to finish this semester and I'm sooooo exhausted and tired of being here, sitting at library and study for exams. I know most of the materials but not to write essays in exams. I can talk about them and I'm pretty sure that I'm familiar with most of the philosophical concepts.

It's cold. I need sunlight. I miss being at my home. I miss him. I miss my family and my friends.

Posted by Maryam at 04:29 PM | Permalink

I just read one of my old posts here and smiled. How hilarious my English was. It means that I've improved a lot gradually without realizing it. I don't say I'm very good now, but pretty much better than before.

Anyway, I'm trying to activate this blog again and write more in English. There are lots of things to write about and the blog readers would be fewer than my Persian blog if there would be any at all.

Probably here I'll write more on Dublin, my daily life, and what I read or learn or watch. There'll be more pictures taken by me. (hope so)

This is the first picture. I took it weeks ago. It's usually busy during the day but I took that shot on a Saturday. This afternoon I drank my coffee here. It was dark and nothing was to be seen through those large windows and yes Lacan was waiting for me in the library so I had to come back to study him.

I finally could make a little bit sense out of his essay. After reading bunch of stuff about the mirror-stage, misrecognition, Freud's uncanny, Symbolic, Imaginary and Real, I'm feeling more confidence now about the psychoanalytic part of exam revision.

Tomorrow i'll review structuralism and post-structuralism.

Posted by Maryam at 10:01 PM | Permalink